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Tuesday, August 10th, 2010

So I’ve been doing bootcamp for, what, 5 weeks now? With one week off?

I’m starting to see some changes, people!!

Legs: starting to look more toned. And about an inch or two off the hips.

Weight: down 5 pounds, which puts me squarely BACK into the body of my 20s, thank you very much.  Five pounds is not a lot to have to lose but it was annoying the shit out of me.  Pants fitting a leetle too tight, dresses hugging the hips instead of flowing. It is amazing what five goddamn pounds can do to sabotage your diva look, I tell you.

Arms: My arms were never a problem, really.  I mean, for the past 6 years I have been hoisting 20-30 pounds several times a day in the form of one kid or another.  Still, I do see a tad more dieselishness.  I love it.

Knees: Now this is where I have a problem.  My knees have been shot to hell since junior high. Oddly enough, the muscles around the knees feel stronger and that certainly helps my knees to be more stable.  Still, though, the shooting pain can’t be a good thing, and although my trainer taught me how to squat in such a way as to take the pressure off, I still feel like the left one is inflamed.  I could go to the doctor, but if I tell you that over the past 20 years I’ve been to the doctor at least 10-15 times about this same knee, only to let the followup fall by the wayside…well, you’d just smack me. So pretend I didn’t mention it, okay?

Abs: Pesky fuckers, abs are.  Mom belly is not fun and although mine is not awful,  I want my stomach to actually be more toned than it was before I had kids.  I have a lot of work to do. But I love crunches in all forms so…I think I can do this, people.

Overall, I feel wonderful.

Tomorrow, another day of bootcamp, which, with the summer passing swiftly, now starts before the sun comes up.

What will you be doing at 5:30 in the morning?

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SAMHSA’s Depressive Disorders Info

Tuesday, August 10th, 2010

From the website of SAMHSA (Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration), a blurb on depressive disorders:

Depression: Beyond the blues

Everybody gets the blues sometimes—but depression is very different from the blues. About 18.8 million Americans experience depressive disorders that affect how they sleep, eat, feel about themselves, and live their lives. Depression has physical and emotional symptoms and cannot be wished away; people with depression can’t just “pull themselves together.” There are different types of depressive disorder, each with its own symptoms and treatment options. The good news? Depression can be treated, and people can recover.

If you need help, their website has searchable listings for services in your area.

For me, being a depressive is akin to being an alcoholic: I’m recovering, but the specter of the disease is always there, lurking around a corner, and I could succumb at any time.  Seeking help took the longest time for me – I didn’t recognize my feelings as depression and once I did, I still thought I could handle it on my own, that it would just “pass”.

It didn’t.

What I went through and how I got to the here and now is a long story I’ll share over time, but for now, suffice it to say that although I do feel better, the battle is still a daily one.   Getting help was an integral part of feeling better: it literally saved my life.

I’m happy that instead of feeling vanquished, I feel like a fighter.

Are you with me?

Thanks to my friend Dr. Cindy Crusto, Associate Professor of Psychology at Yale University School of Medicine, for the link and the information.

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BlogHer 2010

Sunday, August 8th, 2010

Well, that was interesting.

The thing I hate about these things is that you can feel so lost.

Don’t get me wrong, I loved being there and really got some good concrete information out of it.  Best of all, I came away feeling renewed energy for writing, and a real desire to get my ass back up and running again.

But part of that desire stemmed from the feeling that if I don’t get my ass back up and running, I will forever be on the outskirts of the whole “scene”.

People know each other in the blogosphere, as they call it.  They have friends, they have their posses, and when they get to these things it’s a great chance to either meet or catch up face to face.

I don’t have that, because I don’t really know anyone out there.  Sure, there are a few people I follow, like BusyMom, but I couldn’t have found her in all that madness and even if I had, then what? She doesn’t know me from the rest of her 9 million followers.  I’d feel like a stalker.

I know that in great part that is my fault.  When I sank into my depression I stopped blogging, I stopped connecting, and the world went on without me.  Now I’m trying to catch up, and I feel like most of the folks I had once perhaps started to build a connection with are at mile 25 of the marathon while I’m still starting all over again at mile 1.

I could have blogged about being depressed, I suppose, but for one, I didn’t really recognize that I was depressed. All I knew was that I had lost the desire to write, that putting things into concrete words only seemed to solidify and confirm the horrible way I was feeling.  Keeping it vague seemed like a good way of keeping it at bay – you know, like the old advice about keeping people from getting to you by not acknowledging them and their bullshit in the first place.

But I decided that this is the LAST year that I am going to feel like that at BlogHer.  I either need to step it up or not go.

I’d rather take option 1.

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So I’ve been doing bootcamp for, what, 5 weeks now? With one week off?

I’m starting to see some changes, people!!

Legs: starting to look more toned. And about an inch or two off the hips.

Weight: down 5 pounds, which puts me squarely BACK into the body of my 20s, thank you very much.  Five pounds is not a lot to have to lose but it was annoying the shit out of me.  Pants fitting a leetle too tight, dresses hugging the hips instead of flowing. It is amazing what five goddamn pounds can do to sabotage your diva look, I tell you.

Arms: My arms were never a problem, really.  I mean, for the past 6 years I have been hoisting 20-30 pounds several times a day in the form of one kid or another.  Still, I do see a tad more dieselishness.  I love it.

Knees: Now this is where I have a problem.  My knees have been shot to hell since junior high. Oddly enough, the muscles around the knees feel stronger and that certainly helps my knees to be more stable.  Still, though, the shooting pain can’t be a good thing, and although my trainer taught me how to squat in such a way as to take the pressure off, I still feel like the left one is inflamed.  I could go to the doctor, but if I tell you that over the past 20 years I’ve been to the doctor at least 10-15 times about this same knee, only to let the followup fall by the wayside…well, you’d just smack me. So pretend I didn’t mention it, okay?

Abs: Pesky fuckers, abs are.  Mom belly is not fun and although mine is not awful,  I want my stomach to actually be more toned than it was before I had kids.  I have a lot of work to do. But I love crunches in all forms so…I think I can do this, people.

Overall, I feel wonderful.

Tomorrow, another day of bootcamp, which, with the summer passing swiftly, now starts before the sun comes up.

What will you be doing at 5:30 in the morning?

Tags: ,
Posted in Uncategorized | No Comments »

SAMHSA’s Depressive Disorders Info

August 10th, 2010

From the website of SAMHSA (Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration), a blurb on depressive disorders:

Depression: Beyond the blues

Everybody gets the blues sometimes—but depression is very different from the blues. About 18.8 million Americans experience depressive disorders that affect how they sleep, eat, feel about themselves, and live their lives. Depression has physical and emotional symptoms and cannot be wished away; people with depression can’t just “pull themselves together.” There are different types of depressive disorder, each with its own symptoms and treatment options. The good news? Depression can be treated, and people can recover.

If you need help, their website has searchable listings for services in your area.

For me, being a depressive is akin to being an alcoholic: I’m recovering, but the specter of the disease is always there, lurking around a corner, and I could succumb at any time.  Seeking help took the longest time for me – I didn’t recognize my feelings as depression and once I did, I still thought I could handle it on my own, that it would just “pass”.

It didn’t.

What I went through and how I got to the here and now is a long story I’ll share over time, but for now, suffice it to say that although I do feel better, the battle is still a daily one.   Getting help was an integral part of feeling better: it literally saved my life.

I’m happy that instead of feeling vanquished, I feel like a fighter.

Are you with me?

Thanks to my friend Dr. Cindy Crusto, Associate Professor of Psychology at Yale University School of Medicine, for the link and the information.

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Posted in Uncategorized | No Comments »

BlogHer 2010

August 8th, 2010

Well, that was interesting.

The thing I hate about these things is that you can feel so lost.

Don’t get me wrong, I loved being there and really got some good concrete information out of it.  Best of all, I came away feeling renewed energy for writing, and a real desire to get my ass back up and running again.

But part of that desire stemmed from the feeling that if I don’t get my ass back up and running, I will forever be on the outskirts of the whole “scene”.

People know each other in the blogosphere, as they call it.  They have friends, they have their posses, and when they get to these things it’s a great chance to either meet or catch up face to face.

I don’t have that, because I don’t really know anyone out there.  Sure, there are a few people I follow, like BusyMom, but I couldn’t have found her in all that madness and even if I had, then what? She doesn’t know me from the rest of her 9 million followers.  I’d feel like a stalker.

I know that in great part that is my fault.  When I sank into my depression I stopped blogging, I stopped connecting, and the world went on without me.  Now I’m trying to catch up, and I feel like most of the folks I had once perhaps started to build a connection with are at mile 25 of the marathon while I’m still starting all over again at mile 1.

I could have blogged about being depressed, I suppose, but for one, I didn’t really recognize that I was depressed. All I knew was that I had lost the desire to write, that putting things into concrete words only seemed to solidify and confirm the horrible way I was feeling.  Keeping it vague seemed like a good way of keeping it at bay – you know, like the old advice about keeping people from getting to you by not acknowledging them and their bullshit in the first place.

But I decided that this is the LAST year that I am going to feel like that at BlogHer.  I either need to step it up or not go.

I’d rather take option 1.

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Posted in Uncategorized | 2 Comments »

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